dan kamu serta hidup ini semakin membuat saya tidak mengerti

ok , mama papa , saya memang bukan anak yang baik . ok , saya manja . tapi please , saya sudah 18 tahun !! sadarlah mama papa kuuuu . aku bukan dina yang masih kelas 1 SD yang makan harus disuruh , dianterin kemana2 . sadarlah mama papa , aku bisa mandiri kok . liat kan ?? aku bisa kok kemana2 sendiri , ngatur uang sendiri dan bertanggung jawab pada diri sendiri . please , saya butuh kepercayaan . and , for God's sake , saya gag akan menyianyiakan kepercayaan itu .

dan kamu juga , aku nggak ngerti apa yang ada di otakmu . kamu tahu , kamu seperti lagunya katy perry , HOT AND COLD . begitu berubah-ubah . dan aku bener2 males . sayangnya aku memang bodoh sampai nggak tahu lagi harus berlari kemana . nowhere to run even run to see you .

sedikit saja sebuah rasa yang bener2 saya inginkan saat ini . saya cuma butuh sedikit dari kalian . apa itu nggak bisa dan susah sekali ?

hey world !! looking thru my eyes . .
hello dan goodbye , nggak tau apa yang akan saya ucapkan , mungkin hellogoodbye aja , seperti nama band :) and u know what , here in your arms by hellogoodbye is ringing in my head rite now !

RIP MICHAEL JACKSON

dear bloggy , cuma kabar kabur ajah , SAYA LULUS kok !! hhe . dan sekarang lagi sibuk blajar buat snmptn . walaupun sma sekali nggak semangat . knapa ? karna kayaknya yang kuliah tu ortu gw aja . semua pilian yang milih ortu . jadi yang kuliah sapa coba ?
dan saya dinyatakan STRESS berat karena ini .
entahla . males mikir !

all american girl (carrie underwood) is so ringing in my head . i wish i coul be a new yorker for a while . huehe . ok folks , for almost 2 weeks later i will be really BUSY . july . 1 . 2009 . snmptn . it looks like pretty hard .

but , the one which makes me really afraid is monday . june . 15 . 2009 . PENGUMUMAN UAN . just one sentence i've been said . wish me luck , saya lulus ya ALLAH .

and maybe , i'll update this lovely one so rare . hiatus for a while . hha .
wish me luck bloggy yeah !!!!

quick post about my next step

dear bloggy , seem its been so long i didnt keep my fingers , right on this keyboard . hmm , actually i have no a good story except my daily activities . yap , almost three weeks i do a shit thing called "INTENSIF SNMPTN" and u know , i take IPC , so it means that i must learn both , IPA and IPS *sigh*. this course begins at 12.45 till 18.00 . a little bit crazy huh ? oh maybe it isnt time to complaint .

uhmm , there was so many (oh lebay) friends who asked the same question . MENGAPA SAYA MEMILIH JURUSAN IPS PADAHAL SAYA ANAK IPA ?? first , i used to love math and friends and i used to choose enginering when i was at first year till a few months ago . but about 1 month ago i make a decision . . COMMUNICATION as my current mayor obsession . for a few reasons . here they are , first , my parents didnt want to let me go outside malang , second , my dad is an ex-announcer and he still work at local radio and tv station and the last , i prefer DKV actually , but u know , ITB is too far and expensive , so . . i thought communication is closed with DKV :D

juli 1 , is the day , SNMPTN . normally , i got a inferior feelin , worried , and sometimes afraid . for sure , i need a SUPPORT . for everyone . i dont know why , supports can be a power for me , it's like when u was playing soccer , suporter could be the 12-th player . even my old "obsession" , i wish he could be my supporter and the reason why i still at malang . and buddies , with laugh with them everyday , it could be a more energy for me . and parents also . and hows foe ? ohh , i dont have a foe ! hha . i just bet . hmm , FYI , a happy feelin also can be an inner supporter for me . of course , i must STUDY ( oh shit word ) . KODING GO , KODING SOAL2 , KUMPULAN SOAL IPC 8 TAHUN . ohhhhhhhhhhh it is driving me insane INSTANTLY!!

ok , its soo morning buddy ! ill go to sleep .

cherios bloggy :)